The Second Line

You guys... Last night I started writing another post. It was an apology for being so whiny lately and an update on how I can’t possibly have that much sex for another month in a row. I was feeling crampy, AF was due and seemed to be on her way but I was excited that the next time I’d be fertile, we’d be on vacation in sunny Florida and maybe, just maybe, that would be our ticket to a BFP. I had decided that I would take a month off from temp’ing and wouldn’t restrict myself from things I love like wine just because we were trying, because frankly it was just getting old and I figured I’d be happier if I allowed myself some of those simple pleasures, in moderation of course. This morning I woke up, temp’ed as I do every morning and strangely, instead of dropping as it does when AF is about to arrive, it had gone up just the slightest bit. DH was out of town and I had a cheap dollar store test in my drawer so instead of wondering all day until AF arrived, I decided to put myself out of my misery, see the BFN and go on with my day.

Very quietly, so as not to wake my son, I creeped into the bathroom using my iPhone flashlight, tore open the packaging and got to work. The fluid soaks up really fast on the dollar store test and I saw just one line. It was kind of in a weird spot, almost in between the control and test indicators but there was definitely just one line. I recorded the negative test in my fertility friend app, told myself next month would be our month and picked up the test to toss it. Except something caught my eye. Down at the edge of the test strip was a bit of a dark spot… that seemed to be transforming in front of my eyes into the faintest of lines. Surely, it was wrong. It was from the dollar store afterall and probably wouldn’t even be able to pick up the hcg this early on. Would it? The faintest glimmer of hope. I ran to my bedroom, still fumbling in the dark with my flashlight to get out an FRER. Thankfully, I had peed in a cup, because the dollar store tests require you to use an applicator to put the urine on the test… I ran back to the bathroom, dipped test #2 and waited. The previous two times I was pregnant, a line showed up pretty much as soon as the liquid was absorbed. This time it didn’t but the box does say to wait 3 to 5 minutes. So I waited more… I was watching the clock, it had only been about an entire lifetime 30 seconds. And then I saw it. The second line. THE SECOND LINE!!!